kinship
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Thursday, October 1, 2009
ah, how i love my father and mother.
nothing beats kinship.
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Friday, August 28, 2009
i just wanna give my best to You.
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Friday, August 21, 2009
i am not satisfied.
i really am not.
i need to seek help.
yes, i need to seek help.
faith
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a few days ago, Weijie shared with us something really powerful.
why do we always say that we need to remain faithful in the things that we do?
why is it not "we need to remain hardworking"?
this is because, faith is a substance things hoped for, an evidence of things not seen.
so, it is a test of our faith to whether will we continue doing the things that we do even though results might not be right before our eyes yet.
this simply means, just keep doing and toiling and ploughing because if God told you that it is gonna happen, it WILL happen in due time.
water boils at 100 degrees C.
before it hits 100 degrees C, nothing happens. even if it is at 99.9 degrees C, nothing happens.
you can only see it boil when it is 100 degrees C.
keep your vision ahead of you.
run towards it.
do not lose heart. do not lose focus.
it will come, in due time.
hello, Mr Chan.
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meet Mr Chan Yau Chee.
who is he?
he is my father. (:
he played a part in bringing me unto this earth, into this family that God had in plan for me.
he is the man who had brought my family up for the past thirty, forty years and he is the one who raised my siblings and i up.
he is the one who will call me in the middle of the night to ask me where am i and whether am i on the way home.
and when i open the house door at times, he will be at the living room waiting for me.
when i ask him why he doesn't want to rest in his room instead, he says : "because i cannot sleep without you at home."
he will be the one who will cook for the family eventhough the whole family isn't around most of the time.
i would say : "gorgor, zeizei coming home for dinner is it?"
and ask him why is he cooking such a spread for no reason, he would answer : "because i want you to come home and have dinner."
he would call and ask if i am on my way home.
and tempt me with all the good food he cooked so that i will come home early.
he would say : " don't say "i love you" to me, just come home earlier!"
hahaha, my dad is such a romantic, isn't he?
even though there are times where he would be unreasonable and stubborn and words just come out from his mouth without him thinking, to me, he is one of the best father one could ever find on the surface of this earth.
anyway, i think i inherited his short-temperedness, stuborness etc. haha.
there are times i really lost my temper to my parents.
but they forgave me.
they are the ones who loved me for who i am.
not by my achievements in life, not by whatever awards i've won or whatsoever.
i am very sure about that.
because i dare say that, simply because i am not very successful for the past twenty years i lived.
haha. but my future will be successful!
i am not from a rich family.
but given the fact that we are still alive and healthy today is because my father had worked very hard for the family.
there will be times i remembered, my father would tell me me that he chose to eat cheaper things instead so that he can save the money up for the family to eat better things.
he will tell me he decided not to buy certain things for himself so that the money can be saved to buy things for the family.
he will tell me not to celebrate father's day because he wants us to save the money up instead.
(:
for the past twenty years, you had worked so hard.
papa, now, it is my turn.
i cannot promise you an extravagent life.
but i can assure you that you and mummy will live a comfortable life in a few years time.
in a few years time,
you and mummy will attend Church faithfully and be on-fire for God.
you and mummy do not need to worry about the family anymore.
you and mummy can go travel to places that you all never been before.
you and mummy can go to sing toktok chiang with your friends without worries.
you and mummy can go out with san-mou, san-pak, Aunty Chris they all and have fun.
i really pray that you and mummy will be in good health.
and that your heart will soften again for God to move mightily.
seeing you pray to God everyday by the window breaks my heart.
i pray for the softening of the heart and the power of God in your life.
i pray for divine health to be with you and mummy.
i pray for the Holy Spirit to guide you in the things that you do.
i pray that you will listen to God and the Holy Spirit daily.
i pray that you will be able to see God's purpose in your life. it is not too late.
i pray for my family to be whole again.
amen.
i wanna be part of..
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Monday, August 3, 2009
i wanna be part of the Dream Team.
i wanna carry the burden of heart of God Church with Pastor How and Pastor Lia.
Carry the burden of breaking-through with Charleston, Roy and Yassy.
Carry the burden of the Zone with Weijie together with the rest of the Leaders.
okay, enough talking.
time to put my words into action.
goodbye.
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Sunday, August 2, 2009
ah, Yassy!
i miss you already!
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it is an honor to be able to have God as my God.
it is a privilege to be able to have Pastor How and Pastor Lia as my Pastors.
and it is a blessing to have Charleston, Roy, Yassy and Leonard as my Leaders.
they are such great men and women of God.
and surely, i wanna grow to be just like them!!
today, we did not have Service.
eventhough it somehow felt like a weekday for me, it was an amazing one because i spent my morning hanging out with Roy and the secondary school students from C Zone in Church!
we fellowshipped and worshipped God together.
some are 17 and 20 and some are as young as 14.
Yilin, Martyn, Michelle, Germaine, Everlyn, Michelle Yen, Vinson, Joe, Poh Guang, Qi Lin,
no matter how young or old we are, we are called to do great things for God.
1 Timonthy 4:12.
like what Roy said, future CGLs, ZLs, WLs, Pastors and great people will arise from this group of students.
the best years of your lives man!
let's be people who will glorify God with our lives!
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after the hangout with Roy, i joined my dear friends to makan at Mac's.
the usual nonsense, as usual. haha.
then i went to Yassy's place with Mong, Pan, JO, Ee Loo and Megan!
Yassy blew us away with her powerful sharing.
Yassy did not just shared. she IMPARTED DNA and heart into our lives.
Yassy is an amazing leader! (:
YAY!
now we are all ready to grow!
let's grow!
C Zone, Heart of God Church!
