hello, Mr Chan.
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Friday, August 21, 2009
meet Mr Chan Yau Chee.
who is he?
he is my father. (:
he played a part in bringing me unto this earth, into this family that God had in plan for me.
he is the man who had brought my family up for the past thirty, forty years and he is the one who raised my siblings and i up.
he is the one who will call me in the middle of the night to ask me where am i and whether am i on the way home.
and when i open the house door at times, he will be at the living room waiting for me.
when i ask him why he doesn't want to rest in his room instead, he says : "because i cannot sleep without you at home."
he will be the one who will cook for the family eventhough the whole family isn't around most of the time.
i would say : "gorgor, zeizei coming home for dinner is it?"
and ask him why is he cooking such a spread for no reason, he would answer : "because i want you to come home and have dinner."
he would call and ask if i am on my way home.
and tempt me with all the good food he cooked so that i will come home early.
he would say : " don't say "i love you" to me, just come home earlier!"
hahaha, my dad is such a romantic, isn't he?
even though there are times where he would be unreasonable and stubborn and words just come out from his mouth without him thinking, to me, he is one of the best father one could ever find on the surface of this earth.
anyway, i think i inherited his short-temperedness, stuborness etc. haha.
there are times i really lost my temper to my parents.
but they forgave me.
they are the ones who loved me for who i am.
not by my achievements in life, not by whatever awards i've won or whatsoever.
i am very sure about that.
because i dare say that, simply because i am not very successful for the past twenty years i lived.
haha. but my future will be successful!
i am not from a rich family.
but given the fact that we are still alive and healthy today is because my father had worked very hard for the family.
there will be times i remembered, my father would tell me me that he chose to eat cheaper things instead so that he can save the money up for the family to eat better things.
he will tell me he decided not to buy certain things for himself so that the money can be saved to buy things for the family.
he will tell me not to celebrate father's day because he wants us to save the money up instead.
(:
for the past twenty years, you had worked so hard.
papa, now, it is my turn.
i cannot promise you an extravagent life.
but i can assure you that you and mummy will live a comfortable life in a few years time.
in a few years time,
you and mummy will attend Church faithfully and be on-fire for God.
you and mummy do not need to worry about the family anymore.
you and mummy can go travel to places that you all never been before.
you and mummy can go to sing toktok chiang with your friends without worries.
you and mummy can go out with san-mou, san-pak, Aunty Chris they all and have fun.
i really pray that you and mummy will be in good health.
and that your heart will soften again for God to move mightily.
seeing you pray to God everyday by the window breaks my heart.
i pray for the softening of the heart and the power of God in your life.
i pray for divine health to be with you and mummy.
i pray for the Holy Spirit to guide you in the things that you do.
i pray that you will listen to God and the Holy Spirit daily.
i pray that you will be able to see God's purpose in your life. it is not too late.
i pray for my family to be whole again.
amen.
