(:

kinship

2009-10-01T19:35:00.000-07:00

ah, how i love my father and mother.
nothing beats kinship.

2009-08-28T12:19:00.000-07:00

i just wanna give my best to You.

2009-08-21T13:45:00.000-07:00

i am not satisfied.
i really am not.
i need to seek help.
yes, i need to seek help.

faith

2009-08-21T13:21:00.000-07:00

a few days ago, Weijie shared with us something really powerful.

why do we always say that we need to remain faithful in the things that we do?
why is it not "we need to remain hardworking"?

this is because, faith is a substance things hoped for, an evidence of things not seen.
so, it is a test of our faith to whether will we continue doing the things that we do even though results might not be right before our eyes yet.
this simply means, just keep doing and toiling and ploughing because if God told you that it is gonna happen, it WILL happen in due time.

water boils at 100 degrees C.
before it hits 100 degrees C, nothing happens. even if it is at 99.9 degrees C, nothing happens.
you can only see it boil when it is 100 degrees C.

keep your vision ahead of you.
run towards it.
do not lose heart. do not lose focus.
it will come, in due time.

hello, Mr Chan.

2009-08-21T12:18:00.000-07:00

meet Mr Chan Yau Chee.
who is he?
he is my father. (:

he played a part in bringing me unto this earth, into this family that God had in plan for me.
he is the man who had brought my family up for the past thirty, forty years and he is the one who raised my siblings and i up.

he is the one who will call me in the middle of the night to ask me where am i and whether am i on the way home.
and when i open the house door at times, he will be at the living room waiting for me.
when i ask him why he doesn't want to rest in his room instead, he says : "because i cannot sleep without you at home."

he will be the one who will cook for the family eventhough the whole family isn't around most of the time.
i would say : "gorgor, zeizei coming home for dinner is it?"
and ask him why is he cooking such a spread for no reason, he would answer : "because i want you to come home and have dinner."

he would call and ask if i am on my way home.
and tempt me with all the good food he cooked so that i will come home early.
he would say : " don't say "i love you" to me, just come home earlier!"

hahaha, my dad is such a romantic, isn't he?

even though there are times where he would be unreasonable and stubborn and words just come out from his mouth without him thinking, to me, he is one of the best father one could ever find on the surface of this earth.

anyway, i think i inherited his short-temperedness, stuborness etc. haha.
there are times i really lost my temper to my parents.
but they forgave me.
they are the ones who loved me for who i am.
not by my achievements in life, not by whatever awards i've won or whatsoever.
i am very sure about that.
because i dare say that, simply because i am not very successful for the past twenty years i lived.
haha. but my future will be successful!

i am not from a rich family.
but given the fact that we are still alive and healthy today is because my father had worked very hard for the family.
there will be times i remembered, my father would tell me me that he chose to eat cheaper things instead so that he can save the money up for the family to eat better things.
he will tell me he decided not to buy certain things for himself so that the money can be saved to buy things for the family.
he will tell me not to celebrate father's day because he wants us to save the money up instead.

(:

for the past twenty years, you had worked so hard.
papa, now, it is my turn.
i cannot promise you an extravagent life.
but i can assure you that you and mummy will live a comfortable life in a few years time.

in a few years time,
you and mummy will attend Church faithfully and be on-fire for God.
you and mummy do not need to worry about the family anymore.
you and mummy can go travel to places that you all never been before.
you and mummy can go to sing toktok chiang with your friends without worries.
you and mummy can go out with san-mou, san-pak, Aunty Chris they all and have fun.

i really pray that you and mummy will be in good health.
and that your heart will soften again for God to move mightily.
seeing you pray to God everyday by the window breaks my heart.
i pray for the softening of the heart and the power of God in your life.
i pray for divine health to be with you and mummy.
i pray for the Holy Spirit to guide you in the things that you do.
i pray that you will listen to God and the Holy Spirit daily.
i pray that you will be able to see God's purpose in your life. it is not too late.

i pray for my family to be whole again.

amen.

i wanna be part of..

2009-08-03T20:05:00.000-07:00

i wanna be part of the Dream Team.
i wanna carry the burden of heart of God Church with Pastor How and Pastor Lia.
Carry the burden of breaking-through with Charleston, Roy and Yassy.
Carry the burden of the Zone with Weijie together with the rest of the Leaders.

okay, enough talking.
time to put my words into action.

goodbye.

2009-08-02T10:21:00.000-07:00

ah, Yassy!
i miss you already!
):

it is an honor to be able to have God as my God.
it is a privilege to be able to have Pastor How and Pastor Lia as my Pastors.
and it is a blessing to have Charleston, Roy, Yassy and Leonard as my Leaders.

they are such great men and women of God.
and surely, i wanna grow to be just like them!!

today, we did not have Service.
eventhough it somehow felt like a weekday for me, it was an amazing one because i spent my morning hanging out with Roy and the secondary school students from C Zone in Church!
we fellowshipped and worshipped God together.
some are 17 and 20 and some are as young as 14.
Yilin, Martyn, Michelle, Germaine, Everlyn, Michelle Yen, Vinson, Joe, Poh Guang, Qi Lin,
no matter how young or old we are, we are called to do great things for God.
1 Timonthy 4:12.
like what Roy said, future CGLs, ZLs, WLs, Pastors and great people will arise from this group of students.
the best years of your lives man!
let's be people who will glorify God with our lives!
(:

after the hangout with Roy, i joined my dear friends to makan at Mac's.
the usual nonsense, as usual. haha.

then i went to Yassy's place with Mong, Pan, JO, Ee Loo and Megan!
Yassy blew us away with her powerful sharing.
Yassy did not just shared. she IMPARTED DNA and heart into our lives.
Yassy is an amazing leader! (:
YAY!

now we are all ready to grow!
let's grow!
C Zone, Heart of God Church!

The Fellowship of the Unashamed

2009-07-26T11:24:00.000-07:00

I am part of the fellowship of the unashamed.
The die has been cast.
The decision has been made.
I have stepped over the line.
The decision has been made.
I am a disciple of His.
I won’t look back, let up, slow down, or back away, or be still.

My past is redeemed.
My present makes sense.
My future is secure.
I’m done and finished with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tamed visions, worldly talking, cheap giving and dwarfed goals.

I no longer need pre-eminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or popularity.
I don’t have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded, or rewarded.
I now live by faith, lean on His presence, walk with patience, live by prayer and labor by power.

My pace is set.
My gait is fast.
My goal is Heaven.
My road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions are few, but my guide is reliable, my mission is clear.

I cannot be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, deluded, or delayed.
I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of the adversary, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity.
I won’t give up, shut up, let up, until I have stayed up, stored up, prayed up, paid up, and preached up for the cause of Christ.

I am a disciple of Jesus Christ.
I must go until He comes, give till I drop, preach until all know, and work until He stops me.
And when He comes down for His own, He will have no problem recognizing me.
My banner will be clear.

I am a part of the fellowship of the unashamed.

goodbye.

2009-07-07T12:56:00.000-07:00

like a comet
blazing 'cross the evening sky
gone too soon

like a rainbow fading
in the twinkling of an eye
gone too soon

shiny and sparkly
and splendidly bright
here one day
gone one night

like the loss of sunlight
on a cloudy afternoon
gone too soon

like a castle
built upon a sandy beach
gone too soon

like a perfect flower
that is just beyond your reach
gone too soon

born to amuse, to inspire, to delight
here one day
gone one night

like a sunset
dying with the rising of the moon
gone too soon

gone too soon.

2009-06-05T12:59:00.000-07:00

hey.
you gonna face it man.
talk like you mean it.
don't just do like you feel it.
you work like you love it.
you fly cause you want it.

talk is easy.
work is hard.
yea, goodbye.

keep on.

2009-06-02T14:18:00.000-07:00

keep on looking,
you keep on searching.
keep on moving,
and you get a little further.

keep on trusting,
you keep on holding.
keep on facing your failures,
you just keep on toiling.

just try.
try.
you just try.

2009-05-25T23:09:00.001-07:00

i love drinking water.

2009-05-07T01:13:00.000-07:00

my heart is burdened and heavy.
i need to grow.
God, help me.

:D

2009-04-22T11:03:00.000-07:00

was hanging out with Chicks and Guowei today at Tampines!
haha.
hanging out with them makes me sort of miss TP and poly life.
Poly had been fun.
but PGSM is more amazing.

HAHA.
my current module is Managing People and was told that it is actually quite a logical course.
frankly speaking, today is my first time where i sit through the whole class.
i had been leaving early for the past 2 weeks. heeheeehee.

IT IS THE 5TH LESSON ALREADY!
and the whole module is gonna end in another 5 lessons.
oh my goodnesssss.
it is suppose to be a 13 lessons class.
so in order to make it up to us, our lecturer is gonna teach us personal grooming.
how cool is that huh.

talking about him, did i mention to you that he is Mr Manhunt 2000?
lol.
ya, he is/was(?). i dunno.

he is an interesting guy la.
he keeps leaking the SMRT big, ingenious secrets-for-better-trains-rides-for-the-public-in-the-near-future to us.
hahahahahahahha.
and the lessons are actually quite interesting also actually.

i went swimming with Elyn and Steph yesterday!
it was FUN cause we slided down the scary slides which are really actually exciting la.
felt so healthy! HA!
and we made tuesdays our official swimming day!
wooo!

okay!
byebye!

2009-04-16T13:11:00.000-07:00

i love these little surprises that God gives.
(:

amazed.

2009-04-16T12:46:00.000-07:00

i was just reading people's blog and suddenly this heaviness came upon me.
no, it is not the emotional kinda heaviness. and i don't know how to discribe to you this kind of feeling.

but i know God is here.
He is with me all these years.
when i am down, He is here.
when i am growing, he is here.

i got addicted to God Of My Forever recently.
such pureness. the simple cry to draw closer to God.

let's keep things simple.
let's just keeping running towards God; run with God.
be reminded of God's love in your life.
let's fall in love with Jesus once again.

2009-03-20T01:06:00.001-07:00

Psalm 51.

(:

2009-03-11T10:30:00.000-07:00

Godly fellowship IS important.

the greatest thing.

2009-03-03T21:42:00.000-08:00

the greatest thing in all my life, is knowing You.
the greatest thing in all my life, is knowing You.
i want to know You more.
i want to know You more.
the greatest thing in all my life, is knowing You.

(:
love you, God.
when all else fades, You remain.
everything may be stripped away, but You are still there.
You still remain faithful to us.
the greatest thing in all my life, is indeed knowing You.

slacker me.

2009-03-02T00:55:00.000-08:00

i am in office now.
suppose to do project with Yunfang and Gab and Val who crashed into office.
but...
lol.

byebye!
i need to be studious now.

they are crazily laughing away now cause the logo we have for our "menu" is similar to RedRain logo.
LOL.

i am uno stacko pro!

2009-03-01T10:39:00.000-08:00

HAHAHA!

after the very powerful Service today, we had a short sharing session and after that we had our Zone Meeting and after that Zachary, Nelson, Kristi, Chersy, Guowei, Vanessa, Hweeyee, and i went down to Singpost to eat, which was loads of fun and Roy joined us and talked to us and told us this funny joke, and then we sent Vanessa home then i went back to kopithiam to buy food for Yilin then i went to NTUC to buy orange juice then i met Hongrui and talked to him in NTUC whilst queueing to pay for my orange juice and the Kinder Joy, (which is not highly recommended by me, Vinson and Yvonne Heng cause we felt cheateddd when we peeled open the Kinder Joy), okay anyway, then i went to meet Leonard and Bailin who came down later cause Bailin was having followup with Leonard in Church. then we bought food, then we went up to Church to playyy, *drumrolll*

UNO STACKO.

haha.

hahahhaha.

and here are some of the the photos i took.

byebye, stacko.

restoring the walls of Uno Stacko.

hi Guowei. hihi Kristi! (:

LOL! i took loads of other photos kkk!

but i am just too lazy to load them all.

haha.

anyway, i am no Uno Stacko pro.

you all are the Uno Pros!!

haha!

next time we shall play other games! (:

and we should go prata, ECP, Chomp and also do many other exciting stuffs!

iliveforJesus.

2009-03-01T10:12:00.000-08:00

i live for Jesus
cause He has freed us
shout from the mountains
there's no more living in shame
we stand united
His power inside us
we carry the the message of hope
we are His saints
i live for Jesus.
(for You, yeah yeah yeah.)

i love this song. it is such a shout of proclaimation!
i live for Jesus!
do you?

AI Conference 2009 has come to an end.
if you had missed it, i really feel for you.
cause AI was seriously life changing.
i believed it had brought all our thinking up to another level.
its really, really no longer i who live but Christ who lives in me.
its really about moving on into maturity in your Christian journey.
its no longer, "yay! God bless me, bless me."
but is it about, " God, i am living for You and i want live life with a cause."

seriously, we cannot change the world. but we can change our world.
our surroundings, our family and friends' lives.
their lives is in OUR hands.

i wanna live life with a cause.
i don't want to die one day and just simply die. you get what i mean?
i wanna live life with a purpose.
i wanna go to heaven and tell God that i have fufiled the destiny He had in my life.
yea man.

double confirmation.

2009-02-22T07:54:00.000-08:00

hahaha.
its a cool blog title huh!

lol.

growthh!
take a hold of me, God!

(:

2009-02-20T08:13:00.000-08:00

"Leaders are readers.
We learn from everyone we meet.
We fellowship up, so that we mix with people who stretch us.
We grow through trails.
We grow as we step out in faith.
We grow as we accept challenging levels of responsibility.
Our ceilings rise higher as our ability to cope increases."

power hor!

:D

2009-02-09T09:29:00.000-08:00

i love God la.
yupp!
He's the best.

life4dead or left4dead?

2009-02-09T08:15:00.000-08:00

aiya, its just a confusing name la. but i totally love it!
haha.
C4 and C40 caught Inkheart after Service on Sunday and then we went to play L4D!
tsk, i am sort of missing the game already cause it had been sometime since i played this kinda game. haha.
please note, i used to be quite a gamer in the past okay!

haha.
but seriously, more than the fun that we had, we really enjoyed each other's company.
friends play an important role in our lives, and they play a part of defining who you are.
the people you hang out with defines who you are.
the convictions you stand on defines who you are.
the life that you live now determines your destiny in the future.

thank God for all the people that He placed in my life.
i love them all.
(:

hello Koonyew! i miss you neh!

and hello to all who are having exams soon, ALL THE BEST!
you all ARE going to do VERY well! (:!

hellos.

2009-02-04T08:50:00.000-08:00

hello everyone!
Nelson, Terence, Bailin, Chersy, Karen and i went to bak kuk teh last evening!
totally miss the soup and all.
but it was totally expensive la.
):

a big round of applause to Mr Goh Bailin please!
cause eventhough the waves came crashing down, the winds was about to blow him away, the scorching sun might burn right through his skin, the blast of cold air might even strike him down and the attack of sickness might pull him away from coming,
Mr Goh didn't want to pang seh us!
Bailin you rock la.

GET WELL SOON BESTIE BESTIE BESTIE!

and i love Karen and Chersy loads!
(:

next time bring us to the Clark Quay B.K.T okay!

hearts you all!
see you all soooon!

iamfine.

2009-02-04T08:48:00.000-08:00

iamfine.
iamfine.
iamfine.

(:

2009-01-22T10:19:00.000-08:00

God is amazing la.
it was so sudden but i will carry what He spoke to me in my heart where ever i go.
this is my verse for this season. (:

"And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart."
Galatians 6:9

in short, be faithful and be filled with faith, and God will bless you. (:

God is good, all the time.

REUNIONNNNN - part II

2009-01-22T09:33:00.001-08:00

i have to post this for my dearest bad friend.

haha.

i had fun snapping you!

hello Zach, SURPRISE.

lol.

REUNIONNNNN

2009-01-22T08:28:00.000-08:00

hellohello worldzZzzzzzxzxzXzxzXzZXxzxz!
lol!

just reached home from our Reunion Dinner at Seoul Garden and after much eating of the different type of marinated meat, i have come to one conclusion. : i had a whole load of fun with people like Karen, Chersy, Bailin, Zach, Leonard, Joshua etc etc etc etc etc pleaseeeeeeee.
haha, i know! having loads of fun has got nothing to do with me eating loads of meat. but anyway...

HAHAHAH.
as promised!
here are the crazy photos we took!

and they are all unglam photos!
yay-ness! none of me this time (haha) cause i'm the photographer.

meet my new crazy friend! BAILIN!

And Bailin and Chers got sooooooo used to me snapping them, they are ever ready to strike a pose and SMILE instead of letting me catch they unglammmm.

MEET CHERSYYY! (((:!

And Chersy is too glam for unglam cause she don't have unglam pictures!!!!
all so nice and pretty!
haha.

check out Hweeyee!

and i love you toooo, Hweeyee.

and here is Karen, my crazy partner.
hahahha.

the second photo is a classic!

we had loads of fun just now!
loads of fun cooking, eating, snapping everybody, poking fun, and introducing everyone to everyone, horrrrrrrrrrr?
yes!

and Bailin, Karen and i just went crazy in the middle of orchard road.
rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
hahha.

can't wait to hang out together again during/before/after CNY!
yay-ness!
haha!

hmmm, i think you can find short lived happiness in the world, but you can't never find one that's everlasting.
happiness will eventually fade away, but joy won't.
joy will stay with you because it is IN you.
and this joy comes from God. (:

"The precepts of the LORD are right, giving joy to the heart. The commands of the LORD are radiant, giving light to the eyes." Psalm 19:8

"The LORD has done great things for us, and we are filled with joy." Psalm 126:3

yupp! the joy of the Lord. nice. (:

last week.

2009-01-12T10:44:00.000-08:00

hello!
i was in Cafe Meeting last week and Cafe is really happening now with all the codes and all.
though i'm not in Cafe already, but my unofficial code is 88, which stands for huat huat.
HAHA.
Funny Club is still standing strong and i'm glad that i have really good friends like Alvin and Zhilin in Cafe.
and 90 is my bestfriend. (:
we never fail to pull whoever that is lagging behind, along. and that is what a real Ministry is all about. - its not just about doing the thing like making a fabulous cup of coffee or frappe or whatsoever. but it is about developing real relationships and helping one another to grow in the Ministry. looking back, there's no doubt that we had grew. and there is a bigger burden now and let's fill the gap and let's expand in our capacity to support Jieru and Chiwen!

time for dimsum Outing please! *hint hint to 90,91 and 93!*
haha, 88 loves you all! (:

its really great and heart-warming to see people like Ivy and Prec growing in this Ministry. its people like them who makes the whole Cafe Duty very very enjoyable. they are team-players and not stars. (:
haha!
they rock la.

i am missing Nicholas and Elgin already!
8 to 5 man! it will happen!
12more days and we'll see them again.
haha.

i am watching Gossip Girl online now.
i thought this show was seriously nothing much, before i watched it.
but man, i was wrong.
6mins into the first episode and i knew it in my heart that i'm gonna watch the entire season.
its very addictive i tell you!
haha.
and i realized i've actually read one of the Gossip Girl books way back during my secondary school days.
hahaha.
nice!

okay! i'm going back to watch Gossip Girl already!
byebye!

(:

obsessionnnnnn

2009-01-08T09:14:00.000-08:00

i just watched IP Man today ( pronounce it as : eee.mun)
it is good. good good good good good.
2009 is packed with good movies man.
Wolverine, Underworld etc.
good movies, i love.
ha.

random, but Donnie Yen is very cool.
haha.

elevate.

2009-01-08T09:00:00.000-08:00

we need to elevate our thoughts.
its either you are in, or you are out.
God doesn't even want you to be halfway through.
give God your 100%.
practice what you say/sing.
"no longer i but Christ living in me."

(:

2009-01-03T11:48:00.000-08:00

we're C4 and C40.
the army of God, the builders of God's Kingdom.
and most importantly, the Sons and Daughters of our Father.

K-R-I-S-T-I.

2009-01-03T11:43:00.001-08:00

hihi!

her name is Kristi. (i cannot mention her full name cause she don't like it. HAHA!)

do you know that she is amazing?

she is one girl who is so faithful!

you are the best;

your future is amazing.

V-I-N-S-O-N.

2009-01-03T11:40:00.000-08:00

hello!

his name is Vinson Tan Zhi Kai.

16 this year and he is the best.

created in God's image and is fearfully and wonderfully made by God.

he rocks and will be rocking your world soon.

paint this big old town red.

2009-01-02T09:53:00.001-08:00

hello, i love singing! (:

twentyonineeeee

2008-12-30T10:28:00.000-08:00

with an blink of an eye, 2008 is about to come to an end.
just like these past years, this year had past fast.
many things had happened.
people come; people go.
breakthroughs; stagnations and then breaking through again.
having faith; being faithless and having faith again.
growing in God; feeling nuah and then growing in God again.

God had been faithful and will continue being faithful.
(:
and i'm glad that this year had been a fruitful one for me.

today, we celebrate the last day of 2008 and we anticipate the arrival of 2009.
2008 had really been great, but 2009 is gonna be even better.
i remember Zeitgeist was the word for this year.
i am excited for 2009.
because i know God is gonna bring all of us in heart of God church into the next level.

goodbye, 2008!
you will surely be missed.
but then again, this drives us even further during 2009.
are you ready?

faith!

2008-12-28T09:03:00.000-08:00

" But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him." - Hebrews 11:6

we please God by having faith!
let's have faith for the things of God!
(:

AUSTRALIA

2008-12-28T08:27:00.000-08:00

C4 went to watch Australia this evening!

wowwowwow!
i love that movie la.
okay, it IS romance!
but its different!!
not the typical "i love you, you love me" kinda stuff.

it tells the story of an aristocrat, a drover, their relationship with each other, the aborigines and the Australian outback, and what happens when it all falls apart. and it all happened on the verge of World War II.
(i totally copied the above paragraph from a review, but you get the drift, yes?)

and i crown Hugh Jackman as my favourite actor.
yea, he acted in Australia.
but i think he is better known as Wolverine la.
talking about Wolverine, we must watch X-Men Origins : Wolverine!
hahaha. the must-watch movie in 2009!

movie is nice, but the fellowship is way nicer!
Hugh Jackman might be nice, but the whole bond we had was way way way better!
(:
had loads of fun hanging out with Weitze and Yilin (cause we are sitting beside each other in the theater, haha.)
Yilin,i hearts you yea!
BREAKTHROUGH! (:

okay!
CG Outing are always fun!
nothing beats hanging out with Churchies luh. (:
East Coast Park is up next! can't wait for Tuesday to come man!!
i just hope that it won't rain like the other time we went.
haha.
i remember the rain was so big that rain water was just flowing and flowing into the Macdonalds in ECP and that a river was formed at the path where we need to walk from the white gate to the lift in Singpost.
hahaha!
ECP, here we come!!!!!
:D

its the season to be jolly, fa-la-la-la-la.

2008-12-18T18:51:00.000-08:00

hihihihihihihihi!
Christmas is coming! hahaha.
the festive season of love and care.
the time to spend time with your loved ones!
i'm gonna spend time with my family and friends during Christmas! - at home and in Church! hahaha.

had been gifts shopping yesterday!
but i have yet completed my list!
hahaha.
bought for almost every girl in my CG already!
just gonna continue again later this week.
((:
gonna make and write cards too!
onethousandandonecardstowrite!
hahahahha.
but i love doing this!
i love the feeling of receiving heart-felt written cards and i believe others feel the same way when they receive cards from other people too!
(:
hahaha.

hahaha. my mother is very cute!
cause i bought her some facial and massage package the other day.
juat wanna thank her and love her. (:
when i told her over the phone, she asked me : " why you waste moneyyy?!"
then i told her (kiddingly) :" i just want to thank you for bringing me up for 10 over years."
then she said :" orh.. so in your eyes, i'm only worth fifty over dollars is it?"
HAHA.
my mother is so contradicting and cute la.
hahahha.

wow wow wow.
i love you all!
byebye!

ohman!

2008-12-12T09:20:00.000-08:00

i missed it.
):

its okay, there shall be more!
:D

Revive and Re-ignite the fire in our lives!
Amen!

hihi!

2008-12-11T11:02:00.000-08:00

new blogskinnn!
(:
very cool.
it feels like Java.
you have to type the command and press "enter" key and you will see the "results".
wow wow wow.
engineering students out there, does this feel like school work or what?
hahaha.

just on a random note,
i use to like Java when i was still in TP. (:

okay anyway, i'm all set and ready to go!
Growthhhh!

overwhelmed with loveeeeee

2008-12-03T08:33:00.000-08:00

(:
i am very blessed to be in heart of God church.
(:
in such cool and loving family, what more can i ask for?

its a bit cliche, but GET WELL SOON shoutouts to:
everyone who are not feeling well!
like Zach, Hweeyee, the stalker (HAHA, have you recovered?), Yunfang and Vanessa Leong!
(:
get well soon!

okay anyway, this is just a random thought.
tsk.
just cherish what God has put in your hands.
why make things so complicated?
make things simple.
God is simple.
have faith. God is able mah.
(:

hello!

2008-11-28T09:44:00.000-08:00

ya ya, here you go la, Hweeyee the stalker!
keep forcing me to update.
there, here is it.

God's strength

2008-11-26T10:04:00.000-08:00

i pray for God's strength.

i live for You alone.
i trust in God alone.
because my God is greater.
because my God reigns.

strengthstrengthstrength!
capactity and growth!

does your mother know that you're out?

2008-11-20T09:53:00.000-08:00

ABBA!
(:

was at the very POWERFUL Asia Conference the whole of Thursday in Expo!
Pastor Phil and Pastor Ulf are both very powerful preachers! and yes, i am going to buy their books!!
(:
yay-ness!

anyway, was very impacted by this song we sang during the night Session with Pastor Ulf today!
this song is called "The God I Know".
even the title is powerful la!

the Church He knows;
rightheous and holy,
the Church He knows;
is faithful and true,
the Church He knows;
a tower of refuge,
hearts are healed;
Christ revealed.

the Church He knows;
light of the city,
the Church He knows;
strengthens the weak,
the Church He knows;
is strong and mighty,
as He is;
so are we.

this is my cry;
my one desire.
more of You;
more of You.

yupp!
heart of God Church will be the Church that God knows!

and my desire is to have more of You!
(:
haha, i love You, God!

2008-11-16T08:02:00.001-08:00

my God reigns.
(:

let Your light shine woo-ooo-woah

2008-11-14T09:07:00.000-08:00

haha. this CCH song is stuck in my head man!
:D

i'm excited for the weekend that's coming!
after a week of work and school and work and school and work and school, i really can't wait for the weekends to come so that we can all drown in God's sweet presence!

yay!
(:

hearts all!

anyway, Chiwen is my crazy friend.
we do a lot of crazy things together.
she gave me the best birthday present this year. a big big sacrifice. LOL.
okay random!

byebye! ((:

let go; let God.

2008-11-11T05:22:00.000-08:00

God is a good God.

God is a God who allows us to choose and make decisions.

He will present two ways for us to go. like a fork road.

and we will choose the path that we want to walk into.

sometimes, pride kicks in and we are too full of ourselves and decided to take things on our own and hande situations on our own.

little did we know that we did not walk into God's ways for us.

your world starts tumbling down and everything started spinning.

this will be the time to let go and let God.

let go of your fears;

let go of your insecurities;

let go of your worries;

let go of your pride.

let God take your hands and lead you through your toughest problems.

He is the Way, the Truth and the Life.

let Him be in control.

let go; let God.

world of internet and world of laptop!

2008-11-11T01:15:00.000-08:00

hello!
oh my goodness!
I AM BLOGGING!
((:!

hahaha.
i am in Church now!
and i've bought this laptop this morning with Bernard.
(:

i am overjoyed!
yay-ness!

just a quick update about my life this past week.
you ought to be sad if you miss out all the POWERPACK Events man!
Nick Vujicic came and shared about his life story last tuesday and wednesday.
AND Pastor Kong came to heart of God church to preach!
we're nice nice, pretty pretty, water crystals amen!
hahaha.
powerful la!
GROWTH!

hello Zach, Hweeyee, Yvonne, Kristi, i miss you all!
see you all soon!

((:!

i'll BRB!

2008-10-08T22:16:00.000-07:00

the future is built in the now!

Hweeyee says hi. by the way.

2008-10-08T22:07:00.000-07:00

go go go!
run run run!
we take His Kingdom by force!

are you ready?
C4!
Breakthrough!

:D

2008-10-08T20:56:00.000-07:00

back to blogging!

(:

haven't been updating my blog for a long long time!
i'm here at Hweeyee's house (again, lol.) to use internet!
then now i'm here to update my blogg!
(:
yayness!

so many things happened for the past months!
and i'm excited for what there is to come!
come to think about it, my life won't be completed without God.
before Christ, i was an insecure, no life, purposeless girl. wandering day and night without knowing what to do in life.
no purpose, no reason to live, nothing.
living in in my insecurities, i even had thoughts of ending my life then.

it is not that i am not dealing with my insecurities now.
but one thing for sure is that i have a purpose in life, i have a destiny in God, i have a reason to live.
i don't wanna die (this sounds funny, haha!), instead, i wanna make full use of my life. i wanna make my life significant in the soceity.
God had placed a destiny in my life and i want to fufill it.
and whenever i feel insecure, i have my spiritual family and God alongside me to guide and help me.

life is indeed different from the past. that's why i love my life now and i'll never want to exchange my life with anybody else!
i proudly say that i am living an exciting life!
and in the end, i just wanna say that i've finished the race, i've kept the faith!
like the song : "in the end just to hear You say "well done". "
yea!

haha.
i've found my destiny!
you can too!
(:

wow, INTERNET!

2008-08-11T23:08:00.000-07:00

oh my goodness!
i feel so connected to the world of internet now!
for the past 3weeks, there isn't any, i really sincerely mean ANY, form of internet/broadband/or even dial-up at home!
haha.
so now, i'm here at Hweeyee's house blogging away! yay!
hahahha.

yupp!
these few weeks has been really powerful!
i really feel that C4 is on the edge, on the verge of breaking-through!
yes!
can you feel it???!
haha, i'm very excited to see more and more people coming into the house of God and eventually getting their lifes changed by our Leaders and Pastors and most importantally God!
yupp! (:
i'm very excited to see Heart Of God Church moving into a whole new level!
after 2.0, there will be 3.0, 4.0, 5.0, so on and so forth!
yupp!
we are progessive human beings, yes? (:

hahha.
ookay!
this is Hweeyee's room.
muahahhaa.

Love,

Stella

2008-07-20T11:29:00.000-07:00

and Pastor Lia asked:
"do you believe?"

(:

Cafe!

2008-07-20T10:44:00.000-07:00

i just love Big Days.
when you turn and look at the little corner at the back of Church, you will see Cafe.
and during Big Days, especially after Service, you will see Cafe, bustling with Cafe Crews. - trying to chiong as many cups of lattes as possible.
"can someone pass me the milk?" one would shout while another says : "shots are ready! pass me the cups, quick!"
"how many more cups do we need ah?"
"need to steam more milk mah?"
"where is the tablecloth?!"

haha, "hectic" maybe the word you may use to descirbe. but i love it, actually.
i am not sadistic as to fulfil my sense of satisfaction through this kind of "thrills".
but its really because it is a test of our faith, our skills and our flexibility (as in how we would react to situations like this.)

you will a few orders of coffee on every 10-30mins on normal Duties.
imagine you have to make like 30 (or more) cups of coffee within 15mins during Big Days!
its thrilling, isn't it?
panic? scared? worried? emo? how are you going to deal with it? that's the test. that's the challenge. (:

the best part of it all is that you get to work with your spiritual family!
its all about Team Work and serving God with our best!
we might not be as professional as Starbucks or Coffeebeans, in terms of skills or even all the fancy stuff they are using or whatsoever, but hey, we'll got something that's way cooler and better than them. we've got God and that's all we need!
because with God, all things are possible!

haha, i can't wait for more Big Days to come! (:
Cafe 2.0!

one life.

2008-07-20T10:15:00.000-07:00

"one life, i lay at Your Altar;
one love, i have with You.
touch me again;
fill me as You hold, my outstretched hands.
one word, You know i will follow;
one heart; broken to You.
use me again;
Your mercies follows me, for all my days."

we have only one chance to live.
how do you chose to live it?
God had already placed a destiny in our lives.
ulitimately it is up to us to choose whether to fufil it or not.

i thank God for all that is to come.
Church, Zone and C4 breakthrough;
more lives are going to get touched by God;
more families are going to get saved;
more parents are going to get planted and be on fire in the House of God;
more people rising up to carry the burden of our Pastors and Leaders;
more and more people fufiling their destiny and purpose that God has installed for them, in the House of God.

wow, wow, wow!
such an exciting life, yes! (:
just can't wait luh!
(:

"there's only one life and i live it.
and i give it all back to You.
Jesus,
One Way;
One Life;
One Truth."

Amen, Amen. (:

hello!

2008-07-14T01:21:00.000-07:00

(:!
yesterday's Service was really powerful! and i think powerful is an understatement!
really miss Services like this. we use to do that in FTMS.
i remember Pastors once said about bursting through Singpost by our Prayers.
and we are getting there. really getting there!
i'm so excited, being able to see all of us breakthroughing through in our Spirit!
our inner man is growing and growing, yes!
let's continue to grow!
don't just let this be a one-off thing, amen! hahaha. (:

its amazing how God can touch our lives and change it!
and its really a joy seeing people's lives changed!
its a sweet and joyful feeling from the heart. really nice!
haha.
God's amazing luh!

i went NTUC with Hweeyee and Vinson yesterday, before going home, and we spent like 1/2 hours there.
lol.
its really fun hanging out with them!
they are uber funny la please.
Hweeyee introduced us to the world of red wine while i introduced them to the world of drinking sparkling juice and ketchup.
lol.
no doubt, we had fun and maybe next time we can go to cold storage or something. HAHA.
and also, we found something really cool in NTUC. : farcy crab. (pronounced as "fussy" crab) cute right!
haha!

yupp!
let's really be in the same page as our Pastors and Leaders! let's flow and bring Heart of God Church to the next level!
(:

hoGc 2.0!
are you ready?

2008-07-09T22:21:00.000-07:00

(:
i'm still reading The Fourth Dimension (finishing already!) and i really learnt a lot of things from Pastor Cho.
(:
about how we should be in the School of Andrew and how we should have the seed of faith.
these are the things that i really need in my life right now.
and God really spoke to me while reading the book!
yay!

on the side note!
had been hanging out with Churchies for the past few days and had great time of fellowship!
what should i say, well, they are the best!
haha! (:
really had loads of fun hanging out with them!
yupp!
indeed, Church is not just a relationship/fellowship with God, but with God's people as well! :D
haha.
love you all man!

breakthrough from within!
:D

4D!

2008-06-30T10:11:00.000-07:00

no no!
not the 4-Digits.
its called 4th Dimension!
have you read it yet?
yes?
good for you!
no?
you must go grab it!!
cause its a really a very powerful book and "powerful" is an understatement still!
you must go read it and you will really feel faith, increase on the inside and the expansion of your Spirit as well!
i'm still reading it currently and i already wrote down my Visions and Dreams!
and started to pray for them ever since!
woah!
C4!
i'm very excited for our future! - for our CG, our Church and our Leaders and Pastors!
yes!

things are gonna change man!
the world's gonna shake and chains are gonna be broken!
AMEN!
:D

cool song

2008-05-30T11:50:00.000-07:00

I want to run
I want to hide
I want to tear down the walls
That hold me inside
I want to reach out
And touch the flame
Where the streets have no name
I want to feel sunlight on my face
I see the dust cloud disappear
Without a trace
I want to take shelter from the poison rain
Where the streets have no name
Where the streets have no name
Where the streets have no name
We're still building
This burning down love
Burning down love
And when I go there
I go there with you
It's all I can do
The city's aflood
And our love turns to rust
We're beaten and blown by the wind
Trampled in dust
I'll show you a place
High on a desert plain
Where the streets have no name
Our love turns to rust
We're beaten and blown by the wind
Blown by the wind
Oh, and I see love
See our love turn to rust
We're beaten and blown by the wind
Blown by the wind
Oh, when I go there
I go there with you
It's all I can do

- where the streets have no name, by U2

i like this song.
it has got parts of what i'm feeling right now.
haha.

go go go!
no looking back, no turning back!
yea man!

zai-ness!

2008-05-26T20:53:00.000-07:00

and when i go there, i go there with You.
its all i can do.

that's a U2 song, sang by RedRain, during their Concert.
RedRain Concert is really a blast!

how do i say it, its not just another Concert.
i believe those who were there with me know what i mean.
(:

the lights, the sound,the people. its simply amazing, i must say.
really, a day in Your courts is better than a thousand elsewhere. (:
hello! a big big shout out to all the new friends i made!
Shuxian, Yenling, Peisi, "Eugenia", "AdrianaWOW", Aaron, Tiffany, Jerrell, Joseph, etc etc etc! you all are COOL! lol.

i need to talk about the lights which is super duper nice too!
its super powerful la!
haha.
and yes, the "mastermind" behind this zai-ness is Melvin! (:

and after RedRain, we went to eat and nuah and took loads of photos at Suntec - fountain of the wealth.
lol.
its really fun hanging out with Karen, Hweeyee, Roslyn, Vinson, Guowei, Zach, Nicholas and practically the rest of the people from Church!
and then we headed over to Esplanade!
hahahhaha!
the night scenery there is pretty and laughters and screamings etc can be heard.
nothing beats this man!
(:

haha.
i love my life! (:

tantantantan!

2008-05-19T22:44:00.000-07:00

we went sentosa today!
(:
the sun is real powerful and shiny and big!
but i didn't get any tanner. ):
but its alright!
cause the fellowship with fellow churchies was Fun Fun Fun!
C2, 4, 7, 9 went and we had a whole load of fun!
(:
can't wait for another day like this!

haha.

and yes, after a day like this,
all i can say is : "we're ready to attack! here we go!"
(:!

WOAH!

2008-05-08T07:54:00.000-07:00

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good'ay mate!
RedRain is coming to town this 24th and 25th MAY!
they are going to paint this big 'o town RED with their U2 inspired and totally rock songs!
((:
woo-hoo!
wanna know more?
check out redrain.sg for more!

(:
exciting! :D

the commercials make me think..

2008-05-05T11:28:00.000-07:00

you know, nowadays olympic is drawing near and channel five is showing all these commercials about the sportsmen who broke world records and all.
yupp, i was eating my dinner away while watching tee-vee with that commercial playing. and God spoke to me. haha.
" what will you do if you were them?"
and that set me thinking about these people who broke world record and all.
wouldn't it be cool for you to proclaim that all glory to be unto God?
like, tell the interviewers : " without God, i know it wouldn't had been possible." and kinda stuff?
its like the song, Glorified.
"Glorify, glorify. let Your name be lifted up and glorified. let the earth, tremble at Your name. let Your name be lifted up and glorified. "
its so true!
so so true!

without God, we are just mere men and women.
with God, we are everything!
that's something we need to keep in our minds at all time - to depend on God!
haha.
(:

4321.

2008-05-05T11:20:00.000-07:00

hello,
do you have a dream?
some don't.
some are still searching.
while some said : "I have a Dream." and that set African Americans free.
do you have something to die for?
some don't.
some are still searching.
while some already found the Cause and are willing to lay down their lives for it.

so, do you?

:D

2008-04-21T20:32:00.000-07:00

(:
we celebrated Pastor Lia's birthday on sunday!
haha, and Rinnah is so cute - she revealed the secret to Pastor Lia already.
haha! really very cute!
:D

the Choir sang, the Leaders and Dance Ministry danced!
but really, when the music faded, and when all is stripped away, we simply came, at the last part of the celebratation, we came together and worshipped the King of kings and the Lord of lords.
(:
it was really amazing!
that evening, we just came, with hearts that are after God,
and His presence just fell!
amazing!

if you asked me who i wanna be,
i wanna be like our Pastors!
i want to have their wisdom and faith and anointing!
i thank God for such amazing and wonderful Pastors!
(:
Pastor Lia is really someone i look up to!
"and so, her heart was praying. and one by one we came."
i wanna have Pastor Lia's passion for the lost. her heart and love for people.
i wanna have her anointing!
and haha, Yonghui once shared that anointing falls on two things.
one of them is "surrendered hearts".
i'm really impacted when he said that.

we need to our surrender all to God!
we need to take the first step to draw closer to God!
sometimes, we just have to hang in there.
and God will eventually let everything fall into place!

"surrender all, surrender all. i'm dead to sin, alive within."
wow, such powerful lyrics, with such deep meaning.
(:

random!

2008-04-21T20:07:00.000-07:00

AH, I MISS AMOY STREET!
haha, actually more of the durian milkshake!
yummy!
we must go there again!
eat eat eat!
drink drink drink!

haha.

here's a very cool photo of me and Guowei.
well, why this photo?
cause its funny!
lol.

and yes, my beloved friend : CHIWEN!

and talking about her!
she's got a secret hobby - its loud and echo-y.
hmmm, but i'm not telling you what is it!
go ask her if you wanna know!
heh heh heh! :D

Loyalty..

2008-04-21T19:56:00.000-07:00

Loyalty..
is saying you are in, means you are in.
no more turning back, no regrets in the decision you've made.
not compromising when circumstances happen, no longer saying: "the past is sweeter."
both of your feet is in. and you know in your heart that there is no way back.

just like what Charleston preached, the bridge is burnt.
just keep walking forward!
and this will be the point of our life where God is gonna teach us to trust in Him.
bit by bit, step by step.
and before you know it, you are one step closer to God, spiritually.
(:
O, what a sweet life!
i like it like that! (:
haha.

Love..

2008-04-12T20:36:00.000-07:00

Love..
flows from your heart.
not by the words spoken, but the things you will do.
it is something that can be felt from the bottom of your heart.
it is not superficial, love, is something precious.
God's love is precious to me.
i thank God for His love. (:

ECP = East Coast Park!!

2008-04-06T19:27:00.000-07:00

woahaha!
we (Zach, Guowei, Chersy, Karen, Hongkai, Lekfong and myself) went to ECP on thurs! it was such an enjoyable and unforgetful one!
haha!
we had such a great time fellowshipping together there!
we rode bikes, roller-bladed!
the girls rode to Bedok Jetty while the guys were rollar-blading
when the girls were on our way back to the mainarea of ECP from Bedok Jetty, Karen's bike pan-cheked (puntured). haha. then i switched bike with her. and its was so much fun riding a puntured bike. hahaha. but, yes, it was fun, though its really very tiring and i sweated like siaooooo. haha.
after we reached the mainarea, being the nuah me, i went to nuah with Shuhui while Zach, Guowei were riding bike and Chers and Karen went to rollar blading. HAHA. and Hongkai was concentrating on the soccer game(in PSP), and Lekfong nuah-ed with him.

then we decided that its a good time to head on to Macs to MAKAN!
and Hweeyee and Roslyn joined us there. hee hee hee.
we were happily eating away and then...
it rained, HEAVILY.
alamak!
Macs was literally flooded! but thank God we were indoors! HAHA.
initially we thought that we will have sufficient time to head down to Church for CG. but since it rained and we cannot walk through the heavy rain to the bus-stop, we decided to take cab down to Church instead.
wahahahha.

and when we enter the White Gate,
oh my mama!
haha.
its FLOODED too!
its like woah.
you should have seen it man!
lol. and when we reached Church we settled down..
and CG!
so much fun!
but really, its not just fun, but the presence of God that really touched me. (:
Charleston preached to us about being loyal and building the house of God. its really inspiring to see how people around us is sealed into God.
really. LOYALTY.
when we say we are in, we are in. there's no turning back because we are convicted.
convicted about the Truth; convicted by His Word; convicted by Him.

burn the bridge!
make the stand!
don't compromise!
now, is the time.

:D

and after talking to Zach on sunday. yes!
we summerised the Outing on Thurs to be like our annual Youth Camp!
wah exciting la! (((((((:

no turning back.

(:

2008-03-19T09:09:00.001-07:00

hello!

wah!

my computer broke down!

thus, i'm in Mac's with Elyn and Ryan using their laptops!

and Elyn is showing us this super ZAI dance competition thing from America!

and the participants are really very ZAI!

but the dance is amazingly short..

lol.

Easter is coming!

so exciting!

everything is gonna grow into another level!

Cafe, Recept. EVERYTHING!

CZONE, C2479!

woots!

exciting!

but the most important thing is that Jesus died for us 2000 years ago!

His amazing love never fails!

and you can experience it too!

" for God so loved the world that He gave his only begotten Son. that whoever believes in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life." - John 3:16

AMEN!

woahhhh

2008-03-04T07:30:00.000-08:00

last week's End Times Bible Study is really powerful and amazing!
i really learnt a lot from Pastor How's teaching and yes! i took a lottt of notes like what Nicholas shared about Melvin when he first came for it a few years ago.
after understanding much much more about the book of Revelation and about what would happen etc. i felt a burden for my unsaved family and friends.
its more of a fear of what they will be facing - The Warth of God. its so scary. how they would be suffering - fire, flood etc. but the saddest part is, even though the people are going through all these, their hearts are still against God. harden and bitter.
i pray that we will have a tough hard not a hard heart! Amen!

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its really inspiring to see how a generation, rising up to take their place.
and i'm inspired!
indeed, there will definately be more Charlestons and Ivans and Roys!
haha.
and its really a decision away - you can choose the life you want. whether you want a fufilled and exciting one, or a mundane and average one.
furthermore, you only get to live life only once, as in human form. (haha.)
why not make the best out of it?
haha.

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Pastor How shared during Service last week that the purpose of Leadership is to Love and Lead people to Love Others.
this really blew me away.
we Live, we Learn and we Lead.
but you know what's the most important and the root of it all?
it is to Love.
and do you know that there's a difference between Faith and Faithful?
i wanna have Faith and be Faithful!
faith faith! attack!!
haha.

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Koonyew once said that your fire for God can be seen through your eyes.
how true!
haha! random!

:D

TIME Magazine

2008-02-26T07:01:00.000-08:00

And yes, this is the article that Pastor How had mentioned during Service about Billy and Ruth Graham. i went to search online and i found it! via online's TIME Magazine.
its really touching!
and here goes:

"No matter how prepared you think you are for the death of a loved one, it still comes as a shock," Billy Graham observes, "and it still hurts very deeply." Ruth and Billy would have been married 64 years this month. He called her his soul mate and best friend; she was also a woman who could keep him humble, help swat away the temptations and ego trips and the offers from moguls who wanted to make him a movie star or talk-show host. She was a fierce warrior for Jesus, the kind of woman who once tried to hide a broken arm from Billy because she didn't want him to know she had gone hang gliding and who referred to her chosen burial place as her "launching pad." We asked him how he was coping since her death in June. "I realize now," Graham replied, "in a way I never could have before, that a very important part of me has been taken away." And so he has a new tenderness for all those who mourn, that they will be comforted.

Billy used to tell people he wasn't afraid of death but was maybe a little scared of the process of dying. Ruth turned 87 on June 10 and was in rare form that day, celebrating with him and various children home from their world travels. But she was frailer than ever before after about of pneumonia, and that night, as evening came, she started to slip. The next day, the feeding tube that had made it possible for her to be cared for at home came out as she was shifting in bed; she told the nurse she didn't want the tube put back in. She had struggled for a long time, longer than nature might have intended. The rest of the family talked it over and consulted with the doctors. In the end they agreed that the tube would be replaced but only to deliver pain medicine, no more food or fluids.
Three days later, Billy and their five sons and daughters were ringed around Ruth's bed, reading Scripture, singing "Great Is Thy Faithfulness," a hymn sung by millions of people at Graham's crusades. Finally, at twilight, she took a few last breaths. Billy leaned over and kissed her cheek and her forehead. He asked his children to sing the doxology with him, and they struggled through it, praising God, "from whom all blessings flow." The cat that had been shooed away from the bed for months was now allowed to jump on and curl up beside her. And then the family lit a fire in her fireplace, just the way she had liked it. "I know God has prepared a home for her in heaven," Billy told his friends at her burial. "I just hope she saves a room for me."

Grief is a demanding guest in an old man's house. Let sorrow settle in, and in time it no longer feels like home. His daughters had the hospital bed removed and restored Ruth's room as it used to be, warm and inviting, not sad, so it looks as if she's just away on a long trip.

It was Billy's habit, through all their decades of work and travel, to call her every evening at about 5. These days, as twilight rolls around, he finds himself wanting to pick up the phone and call her and then remembering that he can't. "Sometimes I'll be preoccupied with something, and suddenly I'll be reminded of her for some reason," he says, "and I'll find myself almost overwhelmed."
One way he copes, he says, is by thanking God for the years they had together. "They are over now — but God was good in giving us to each other, and I want to be grateful for those memories and not suppress them." He has pulled out some of his favorite pictures of Ruth and put them on his desk to remind himself.

We asked him whether, with all our advanced medical technology, we perhaps fear death and fight it too much. "I think we often do," he said. "I'm convinced that in some cases we aren't so much prolonging life but prolonging death." Over his long life he has endured some serious medical crises; he now has Parkinson's disease and prostate cancer and a shunt to drain excess water from his brain. "I'm thankful for the incredible advances in medicine that have taken place during my lifetime. I almost certainly wouldn't still be here if it weren't for them," he says. "And I believe God has given them to us because he loves us and wants what is best for us, both in this life and the next. But death is a reality common to us all, and for me as a Christian it isn't something to be feared, because I know what lies ahead for me beyond the grave."

Graham has always been one to keep looking forward and not get stuck in the past. He's thinking about fixing up the house or writing another book — he has already written close to 30. "Over the years I've seen people lose a spouse and then withdraw and lose interest in life," he says, "and I believe we need to resist that." But it has become clear that a man who spent his life teaching people how to live is now in a position to show people how to die, with hope for an eternal kingdom that is no longer a theological abstraction to him. Heaven is where Ruth is. "Someday soon I will join her," he says. "Most of all, I take comfort in the hope we can have of eternal life in Heaven because of Christ's death and resurrection for us. I've preached this message almost all my life, and it means more to me now than ever before."

-TIME Magazine

the life.

2008-02-26T00:52:00.001-08:00

see, Siok.
told you the blog didn't dieeee!
haha. (:

i suddenly remember this story, which is rather inspiring..

there was a boy who really unhappy with the world that he was living in. unhappy with the things and the people. so he made a decision in his heart that he will do something about it. - he shall change the world!
months and months he tried. and little did he know, that years had passed. and soon, he is already a growing teen.
he thought:"hey, if i can't change the world now, i should at least try changing how things are in my country!". so he made a decision in his heart that he will do something about it. - he shall change the way his country runs!
again, months passed. and before this teen knew, he is already a twenty odd man.
he thought:"hey, this ain't working. if i can't change the world and this country. i should at least change my state!". so he made a decision in his heart that he will do something about it. - he shall change the way his hometown is!
years passed yet again, and soon this man got married and is now the father of two.
and again, he thought:"oh dear. i've attempted for so long! and things are not working out in this world, nor this country. either this place i'm living in. i must work things out. i must at least change my home!". so he made a decision in his heart that he will do something about it. - he shall change the way he runs his family!
day in, day out. months, and then years passed. he is now an old man with beard and hair, colored with the color of snow.
old and weak, he thought to himself once more:"a youth, i was. trying to change the world. and years passed with a blink of an eye and now, an old man. but yet i acheived nothing.. maybe, i should just start with change my own world..."

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well. this is the end of the story.
so many things, we had once thought. but maybe we should just start with changing ourselves! - the life that we are currently leading.
i believe things around us will eventually change.
our families;
our homes;
our soceity;
our country;
the world.

and ta-da!
the decision is in our hands now!
surely we don't want to be like the old man - having such a powerful revelation, but it was all too late for him to actually do anything.
and since we are still young! let's really make full use of our youth!

"Those from among you
Shall build the old waste places;
You shall raise up the foundations of many generations;
And you shall be called the Repairer of the Breach,
The Restorer of Streets to Dwell In. " - Isaiah 58:12

here's another version:
"And your ancient ruins shall be rebuilt;
you shall raise up the foundations of [buildings that have laid waste for] many generations;
and you shall be called Repairer of the Breach,
Restorer of Streets to Dwell In." - Isaiah 58:12 (Amplified Blble)

excitinggggg!
(:

ah-ha!

2008-02-26T00:49:00.000-08:00

take, run, fly.

can't wait for our exciting future!
:D

twothings

2008-01-28T09:34:00.000-08:00

"build your pillars strong. i will bring you there."
"don't limit yourself. and DON'T limit Me."

i feel so fufiled to be able to live such a life!
this season is all about going back to the basics. - trusting God all over again, building my foundations strong, reading daily Devotionals (whichs makes me feel so happy whenever i finish reading for the day, haha!).

back to basics!
running back to the arms of God again;
hiding under His wings, seeking refuge;
singing my love song to Him;
and seeing Him face to face.

i will live, a child in awe of You!
these hands are Yours, teach them to serve as You please!

thank you God!

zoom,
Stella

:D

2008-01-24T11:27:00.000-08:00

too many shadows in my room. too many hours in this midnight. too many corners in my mind. so much to do to set my heart right. oh it's taking so long. i could be wrong, i could be ready. oh but if i take my heart's advice. i should assume it's still unsteady. i am in repair, i am in repair. stood on the corner for a while. to wait for the wind to blow down on me. hoping it takes with it my old ways. and brings some brand new look upon me. oh it's taking so long. i could be wrong, i could be ready. oh but if i take my heart's advice. i should assume it's still unsteady. i am in repair, i am in repair. and now i'm walking in a park. all of the birds they dance below me. maybe when things turn green again. it will be good to say you know me. oh it's taking so long. i could be wrong, i could be ready. oh but if i take my heart's advice. i should assume it's still unready. oh i'm never really ready, i'm never really ready. i'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there. i'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there.

- In Repair, John Mayer

have a nice day!

in repair

2008-01-24T11:13:00.001-08:00

dear God.
please take me, break me and mould me.
please use me and guide me and teach me again.
please change my heart and my character and my mentailty.

thank you, God.
i love You.

SIMINNNN

2008-01-24T11:07:00.000-08:00

HI SIMIN!
AS PROMISED!
A POST JUST FOR EUUU!
touched notxxXxxxXXXxxxx?
KEEP HOLDING ON!
its not about how you start but its how you end it!
(:
hearts you loads Simin!
heartsheartsheartsheartsheartsheartsheartshearts!

2007-12-12T08:28:00.001-08:00

hello.
(: